Being pushed to be here

My friend passed away when we were just 15, only a few months after we celebrated her a year cancer free. It was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, all stages of grief at such a young age, feeling like I could’ve done more as a friend when she was still around and doubting everything I had ever done for her knowing it was never enough. I’m now 18 and feel like I’ve lived 1000 lives since then, back then we had a big friend group and now I don’t talk to any of them, we all went out seperate ways going into uni and most of them are successful but I feel like I’m the only one still grieving her and wishing she was still here and able to do this whole weird uni experience with me but I feel her with me, almost all of the time. I don’t live in London but came here for two weeks for an incredible opportunity that only she would’ve been able to put into my lap and then I came across one of your signs and I couldn’t Thankyou enough for that. I’m a very superstitious person so even tho it was your workings I am very convinced it was her telling me that this is where I need to be and she will be here no matter what and it’s exactly what I’ve needed after everything, so I thank you.

Written by - Anonymous